projects day reflections

as i am only a secondary 1 student, i think passing the prelims was in a way, very good already. but the preperations for the semifinals were even more excruciating because of the immense stress i was under.
well, i did not want to fail any of my test, for my MSG is already below average. if i did not mug more, i was afraid i would do even worse. thus, i slightly neglected my projects day research and only completed after a warning call from Jia Jie, which was clearly not enough.
the fact that Darrly Chan was missing in action,added to our already so heavy workload. at this point, my only wish was to get this thing over and done with, so i could just go home and do something else that i wanted.
now, the only thing i feel is guilt, for my personal results, i neglected the needs of my group, the ones which were most impotant at that point of time. since i needed to sleep at 9.30, due to parents issues, my groupmates were kind enough to bear that heavy workload for me, they were kind enough to only let me handle the Q and A and the introductory slides, i am grateful for that kindness.
but lets get realistic, i tell myself. they wont choose me next year. i will probably be replaced by someone more competent, someone who can burn the midnight oil. but i was took in this year by them this year, so they are stuck with me, i wonder:who will group with me next year?